i miss him...

i dun noe why... the missing just get deeper...

every now and then... esp during the night.... i will always tot of him, recalling all the stuff we did together.... and i really miss it all....

i miss all the movies that we had watched together, the legend, goal, huo yuan jia, geisha... miss the feeling in the cold theater and stealing a peek at you sometime to look at the funny expression on ur face with that suspicious eyes on you.... miss the after movie LJS meals... and miss those bus rides where we took U-turn so that i get to alight earlier that you... =)

miss all the journey on the bus.... where we sat side by side... and i had always wondered izzit i too fat or your shoulders too broad that our arms will overlap each others.... and even though the bus was freezing cold, the arm that u overlapped will be sooo warm.... those musics that we had listened during those trips which u always choose the songs to play... and i always tot if those song are things you wanne say....

miss the feeling of being pampered when u will reach out to adjust those air cons when u noe i was cold... or slapping the seats to make sure they were not too warm for me to sit....

miss the arrogant face on you... and that smart alex you which always get me mad... the childish thinkings.... and the high self confidence u always had or pretend to had.... although these appears to be a turn off for me, but somehow... i hope to see them all over again.....

miss all the unexpected stuff that we had did together without even planning to... like the sentosa trip and pasir ris walk to the red house.... all these fun and laughters we had shared... and the special feeling of attention i felt then....

i wonder if i had plucked up my courage and ask, will things be different now??

was everthing jus one sided or u feel them all too??

why did u suddenly lost contacts with me??

how had u been now??

although i noe u cant be the one..... i still lost control of my feelings...

i really nv noe i like u this much till u wasnt with me....

and though i noe the way to cure this missing, is to find that special some1 to replace you, but till the day he appears, i will continue to miss you

stop torturing me....

missing some1 is not a good feeling....

let them be memories of the past.... so they will not hurt as much....

till then i will be strong....

and i hope one day.... we can get back contacts and be like the old time....

take care dear friend.....