yoyo... this is to make up for yesterday blog... haaa

well...today i went to the 399 NTUC and the wet market to help my mum but her gocceries. ... haa.... its a rather funny experience... cos i was "lead" there by my youngest sister... well... cos my sister is more familiar with that market than me and know where to buy those stuffs my mum wanted.... (more pro than me too)....
when we get there, we headed to the NTUC 1st and buy tomatoes, and can food.... the tomatoes part was funny as we had to select 5 out of the mountain... haa... and u know what?!! my sis actually have to teach me how to choose.. haaa... but she also aga aga only...heee... =P...
after that, we went to the wet market located near by... we went to the yong tou fu stall and get our fishballs and bian xiang (jus learnt that from the stall tender) and fishcake... erm... rather embarasses there as we have to read from the paper we have written down.... haa....
after we finish our 1st level "shopping", we went to the 3rd story to get our lunch.... but since it was still early, we decided to reward ourselves (on my mum bill) with a sugar cane drink... haa... my sister was very happy as it was her 1st time to go "shopping" on my mum behalf... so got to reward her lor.... hee...

after we bought all the things on our list, we headed home.... and again, my sister have to lead me... *blush* she was sweating lot... dunno why... haaa.... and we finally reached home.....

so that how half of my day was spent away... i intended to study for my coming tests... but went online instead.... and i checked out candy blog and got some of the pictures my MUA2Ck had taken... then i decided to make a "creative" pieces out of them and spent another 2hrs on it... below is what i had done.... (yeah its rather ugly i noe, but its my 1st time)....
so after all these, its TV time till 10pm and i haven get to study anything.... gosh.... and then at ard 10.30, i took out my notes finally.... haa... and study till 12.... then i went to my dreamland.... haaa.....

good afternoon...

wat a hot day today.... sweating.. .its 32 degree now... wah.... lol

nothing much happen today...
i never when sch today... though there is suppose to have MAEC lecture....
i stayed at home to rot... hahaa
cos i will be very very busy tml, on sat and sun..... hai...
lots of events going on... and i have my BCA test tml... gosh

hai.. later i MUST study my BCA... hope it will be easy...
jus change a bit of my blog... notic the welcome page i type new things???
refresh to see ba....

hai.. i wann get my sister to help me change the blog skin le... hahaa...
look forward to it ba... heee

tkcare

There once was a bunch of tiny frogs, who arranged a running competition.

The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower .

A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants...

The race began...

Honestly:
No one in crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower.
You heard statements such as:
"Oh, WAY too difficult!!
They will NEVER make it to the top."

or:
"Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!"

The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one...

... Except for those who in a fresh tempo were climbing higher and higher...

The crowd continued to yell
"It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!"

More tiny frogs got tired and gave up...

...But ONE continued higher and higher and higher...
This one wouldn't give up!

At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower.

Except for the one tiny frog who after a big effort was the only one who reached the top!

THEN all of the other tiny frogs naturally wanted to know how this one frog managed to do it?

A contestant asked the tiny frog how the one who succeeded had found the strength to reach the goal?
It turned out...

That the winner was DEAF!!!!

The wisdom of this story is:
Never listen to other people's tendencies to be negative or pessimistic...
because they take your most wonderful dreams and wishes away from you. The ones you have in your heart!

Always think of the power words have.
Because everything you hear and read will affect your actions!

Therefore:
ALWAYS be POSITIVE!

And above all:
Be DEAF when people tell YOU that YOU can not fulfil YOUR dreams!

Always think:
I can do this!

helloooo........ back again...
feeling quite sick now.... can predict tt i am going to fall sick soon...shit.....
i am now with my BCA group doing the PBL... but i couldnt do anything cos i dun noe a thing.... sad..... *guilty*

wanted to attend the lecture today but was late for it again today.... hai... when will i change??

FUMEI, U MUST CHANGE!! Be resposible for urself whether in career or studies remember??

nothing much happened today.... jus that i felt my studies is very jialat... *sigh*

yesterday however, did have lots of happening stuff took place.... it was flooding day... (to laugh or cry??).....

i when for the int president lesson at furama hotel again... the topic was ZHAN SHENG XIN XIAO... it was labelled as PSC2 by mr sebas.... i was really shocked by it... Mr jackson was being called on stage by zhong cai for an "awaken" session.... that reallly send lots ofpple to tears... i was red eyes and did really felt the sorry and hurt mr jackson feels..... later on the was a break and Mr jackson told us about his story in tears.... again there was another breakdown by the audiences.... after that Mr Man gave us a smalll debrief... he was also crying too... my tears was gonna burst out too... i believe from today on all of us are going to fight even harder for our goals and success.... FAST is the word....

the seminar ended vey early ytd... at ard 6pm.. then the whole network make our way back to the company by foot.... haa.... then we went for our dinner at lau pat sai..... there was a band performance by temaksa secondary... and we listen to their music for an hour b4 heading back to the company where we did some planning with don... then after the mangers meeting is over, mr man came over to tell us the good news that the long awaited incentive... the ang bao incentive will be starting today.... haaa... we must FIGHT... lol...

Fumei, u must believe in urself that you can do it.... Yes you can...

hope my appt tml will be a great success... JIA YOU...

hellooo...
back again... hee....
been away from here for such long time le... did any1 miss me??? lol.....=P
sooo i shld publish all my posts at 1 go... heee... so enjoy reading...

i shall start on wat happened today.....

again... we have reached the middle of the week... its wednesday today.... *sigh* how time fly....

i woke up at ard 8.30 today, washed up and haved breakfast....
my dad was on leave today so he stayed home and does the sweeping and mopping... (haa... i no need do...) wonder when my mum will be back.... its really hard to handle a home seriously....

after my breakfast, i boiled the water and then sat in front of the desktop... cant remember wat i did on it... but dunno y the time passed so quickly.... before i notice it, its already bath time for mi before i sat off to sch.... i actually tot of cooking instant noodles for my dad and mi as lunch... but there was no time for that..... so after my bath, i packed my bag (and i need to bring y laptop today for BCA) , changed and set off to sch....

i was late for lesson.... about 10min?? but i wonder if that teacher did marked my attendance...~~... during the lesson i did my SAM assignments and our PBL (there was hell lots of problems but i cant be of help.... so guilty.... ).... also during the lesson.... Pamela talked to me and jasmine about the problem we have in our LMS... she is really a serious worker... haha... no offend....

after the lesson... Pam, cassie (thx her for the help), peiling, ivy and mi went to the nursing block to film one of our LMS scene.... i freak out when we entered the room... there were dummies on the bed... they look so dame scary... soooo real.... the tot of it now still irk me.... shiver.... but we still that scene over with with 2 NG by me... (sorry....)

after which.. i went canteen1 and look for helene and hui mian... and i had my late lunch... hhaaa... then we proceed to pam house ard 5.40... reached at 7 plus and completed everything by 8.15.... thank god....

well... i dun really like how i look on screen... it jus suck... sob... but jus let it be... as though any1 care....
i reached home ard 9.30pm and i bought instant noodle as dinner... then after that i came over to this desktop and completed this post... finally.... haaa..

ok... gonna make a call... hope i have a good chat....

signing off.....
gd night
*muack*

I got this story from a friend.... i think its quite sad.....

"this is how it all started....
8th oct 2005
the feeling was in the air that day... somehow.

after we parted with the rest, we went home together.... cos we are heading down to the same place... we took the Train back... its was so crowded and i didnt have a seat and so had to stand... i had such a tired day... he stood near me and was using his mobile phone (msging) and talk to me... the same type of conversation we shared.... we reached our destinated stop finally and the sky was already dark... he was suppose to take a bus back but i asked him to walk to the next bustop instead (cos its along the route i had to walk...hehe) our body was in a few short contact... then he suggested to take the U-turn bus which both of us can take...
on the bus.... we chatted.... but i was tired... after the long day of work.. i dunno where i got the courage (maybe cos his shoulder was jus next to mi) i asked if i could lie on his shoulder... he agreed.. so i lean down for a while.. my face was a bit red... i withdrawn my head.... i notice he was tired too.. and he joked tt he shld lie on my head... so i lie on his shoulder again and his head was on mine... though tt moment only lasted for 10 secs.... but had stayed in my head for the next week (which i didnt manage to get to see him)... that moment feeling was really sweet...

hello....
back to blog again...
its been a long long time......

my one and a half month sch holiday is over....
so... how have i spent it??
well...... i work in a factory (Associated Spring Asia) for jus a month (plus 5 days).... really have a taste of how rat race is... *its really addictive how we keep thinking about the money and had to drag myself up every morning* ... it was so dame tired during tt period.... but its over..... and somehow i do miss the pple there..... i learnt and see lots of things there too.... *how cunning pple are... how some pple is so two-faced... etc* .... haha....
but... i didnt manage to achieve wat i want during the holiday.... sad....

hai... actually lots of stuffs happened during the holiday period....its alot of stuffs that have changeg my life somehow.....

i can't mention what really took place in here... but this incident have really inject mi with a lots more fighting spirit.... and i am going to fight.... jus praying for the RIGHT person to appear.....

"YOU MUST DO IT, FUMEI"

another interesting thing that somehow change my life is........ shld i say??.... erm........ erm............erm................... well....... i shall say a bit....... i am enjoying a person company recently..... feel nice with tt person but still cant figure out wat he think..... also...... haiz...... dunno if i am right.......

ok... i shall stop here for now...
gd night......

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*why is he sometime hot sometime cold??*

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well. The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do.
Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway; it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey. He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him. They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well. At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly. Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down. A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well. He was astonished at what he saw. With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing. He would shake it off and take a step up. As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal, he would shake it off and take a step up. Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off! Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

hello.....
back again...
hai... been rather down... dunno y my life is in this stupid mess.... i wonder wat happen to me....AHHHHHH
hasnt been back to my dear dear company for 1week le.... miss the pple there... but go back got lots of stress.... hai... been addicted to maple story recently also.... but cant really play much too since my mum will nag nag nag..... sad...... its not tt i dun like staying at home.... is tt my mum will keep nagging nagging mi..... i already felt very lously le and she will jus keep nagging... and tt feeling came back again.... ah... help.... i dun want it..... and i wonder why this few days... i feel... really really tired... can slept whole day still tired.... and is soooo dame lazy dun wanne move.... i hate this kind of life.... i want a better life... a more fruitful one.... i live in this world 17 yrs plus le.... but yet nv did anything tt i felt is great yet... i have big dreams for future... but yet i dunno y i jus nv do anything to go achieve it.... i hate this lously feeling....
i dunno y... i got this idea in head.... i feel like disappearing away for sometime then return with high flying results..... cos i jus feel tt my surrounding is holding mi back.... i wanne fly... up high.....

and now my exams is coming....yet i felt i am so behind.... sooo much to catch up..... i tot after sec i will change.... will be able to study properly.... y?? y am i will such lously personality??? y is it tt other can be sooo easily motivated or enlighten while in my case onli last for mins??? is it really true wat the fortune teller say tt i am special in characteristic wise??? AH... it really dun feel gd.... wat the real problem causing my life to be so???
can some1 jus tell mi....

hello... good day to all... haha

today was so-so la... erm... lets talk about how my day was today........

today i went to sch early in the morning at 9am... suppose to reach but i late.... oops....

we had our ocom table topic today... all of us in to go twice... we stay from 9to 1pm for this... the two topic that i was given today was

1. retrenchment
2. bubble tea burst

i dont really noe wat i was talking aboout at all.... lol.... jus simply say anythings that is on my mind.... hope everything was well... we had a 10min break in between.... so mi and the other girls went to canteen 1 and buy some snacks since most of us are hungry... i think we over run the break time and all of us went back late.... haha...

after the table topic.. we went for our lunch at canteen 4.... i had the jap store bento set... not too bad.... then aft that we proceed to the LT45 for our BSTA lecture... but... however.. though i was a bit late.. i had hardly sat down comfortably when the lecturer said "end of lesson, u may go off" .....i was stunt... but the lesson had truely ended.... so we went off... mi and jasmine decided to go orchard walk walk.... b4 we head for the company.... we went to far east plaza and walk and saw a few nice clothes... we did quite alot of things there la... haha....

after that... b4 we head for the company.... we wnet to the MAngO and look ard... we saw some nice blazor.... so mi and jasmine try them on and practice our "feng shen bang" over there... it was quite comical.... haha...

aft tt we went to the company and waited for the rest of the pple to reach... i met a new friend Cally... and she was very very friendly... after tt... mr calvin came over to mi and teach mi some stuff... i help him tie his tie also.. lol.... after tt.. we had our grping and discuss abt our appt and stuff... not gg to touch on too much on tt....

me and jas went home aft tt.... i took a nap on 97 and then aft tt change bus to 335 and went home.... then now going play maple story and aft tt say gd night....

happy teachers' day..... cheer....

hello... back to blog again...
hai... wat a bad day today..
suppose to have an appt today.... but got ps... fang fei ji... so down.. then my attempt to make another appt was bad too.... my friend gave mi a shitty ans (i will be 5 cents richer if i never reply).. i was pissed off... gr....
let mi tell you in details how bad my day was......

ytd i had a very unhappy night... my friend(A) told his parents he not gg home tt night... intending to spend the night at another guy house... unfortunaly... tt guy will be spending the night out for appt too... then this friend(A) agreed to come with us as another of my friend (B) suggest to go my house and also buy voka at cheer.... i didnt tot they said that seriously.... and was kind of dunno wat to do when i knew B meant it... i dunno where to let them slp... and my mum disagreed of them staying in my house... so i was like very pai sei... then they say wanne slp in void deck... very weird la.. then A keep complaining tt my place very ulu... and i am quite pissed off by it lor...

later when i got home.. my mum was very angry of mi and sort of scolded mi... i was very hurt... i jus dun understand why she always think things till so serious or complicated.. i noe cos she is jus being cautious.. but i still cant tahan that lor... its like if really everything pple do also got motive then next time i no need do big things le lor... i jus hate tt way that she thinks my friends are all bad.. i jus dun noe how to bring across the msg tt i noe wat i am doing...

then morning when i woke up, my mum keep nagging abt ytd night stuff again.. and told mi not to go my company again....i was very very sad... and startled to doubt myself... am wat i doing really right? shld i give up... but how to??

but anyway.. i suppose to have an appt today.. i went to lakeside mrt to change to my biz wear.. cos i dun want my mum to noe i went company... then i wanne take the train there cos i cant take bus or i will be late... jus when i tap my card.... and when in to the station,,, my friend told mi she cant make it.. i was like.. HUH?!.. then i dunno whether to still go down the company or wat.... but i went down still... but when i went in.. there was no1.. so i went off.. took bus 97 and set off to jurong east.... on the bus i tot of wat to do next.. decided to go shopping my own.. but feel like calling B out to talk about my prob... on the bus i tot thru all the things that have happen... and i found a drop of tears on my face... so i decided to call B out to talk instead....

i forgotten that B mum will be at a competition and needed supporters and B onli mamage to get 2.. mi and another friend... but end up onli got mi go... lol... but the day following was much much better le.... jus tt my mum start nagging again when i got home abt the ytd night stuff again... hai...

guess i will stop here... though i have tons of other things to write...

gd night every1....

hello...
its been a long time since i blog... jus suddenly feel like doing so.....
hai.... been very busy and tired recently..... big change to my life in such short period of time... never get home till after midnight... going budget on lots of stuff.... make lots of nice and new friends.... but missing out time with my family... sob sob...
actually i am also unsure of the things i am doing now... dun noe is gd or bad....
but i really did enjoyed myself over there.... the people are really nice.... they are also fun to be with... :)
but somehow... feel very sad tt my mum isnt supporting mi with the stuff i am doing... tt y i am so unsure of it....
if these changes nv take place.... will life be better??.... or these changes is something tt can really make mi a better person?? i really very confused by it.... recalling the things i have done... i haven did anything my mum is happy of and i felt have done the right thingy.... in fact most of it i regreted... will this decision be another one?? i really hope i have made the right choice....

now i am into the "testing" period and its really tough.... felt really very tired... but i will hang on.....
2 things tt have changed my life alot (soo far)

• the break up of friendship in my sec yrs.... *sob*
• my this very decision.... which my mum is very unhappy about and i am very tired of.... but i must HANG ON....

this is my 1st post. haha.
this blog is for my CIP assignment..... but i will try use it more often next time.
erm.... lets c wat to talk about here....
let's talk about how life hAve been for me in NP.....
been studying there for almost a mth le....
NP is very happening and lively.....
though at the start i find it hard (during the 1st week esp), cos we have to be really independent plus i dunno how to get ard the sch well yet.... but after another week.... it's appeared to be much easier for me...... i noe how to get to the venue for my lesson..... except blk45 which i am still not familar with... hehe... but i will one day... lol..... =D
oh yes.... and the best spot in NP for mi shld be the ATRIUM and the LIBRARY..... these places are really cool and nice to chill out... with my laptop of course..... i have start to enjoy the poly life now.....
but... its still quite tiring still as for some module, i still dun understand how to apply them.... =(
but i try and work hard here in poly as
its a new start and a new beginning for mi....

JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!!